Going the Long Way

What a year this week has been! And it’s only Tuesday. I just had to check when the longest day of the year is actually and it’s December 22nd, which means from now til then it’s just getting longer and longer.

Of course the ‘longest day’ just means most daylight hours, does it not? So really you’d think it would seem shorter. For example in winter when I leave work after 5 pm it’s dark, whereas currently I leave at 6 pm with the sun squarely in my goddamn eyes. Which I accidentally rubbed sunscreen into again…ouch!

You’d think I’d be happy to have a few extra hours in the day but no matter what I do I feel like I’m ‘wasting’ them on monotonous times at work when I could be doing far more exciting things like cleaning the goddamn house while yelling at the kids to help.

The problem with my current mood which you might be able to relate to is that I’m equal parts bored and lazy. There’s nothing to do unless I think of something which I can’t. Or I can but don’t have the time or motivation. When I have the time I don’t have the motivation.

I drive home thinking of all the stuff I can get done and I arrive too tired to do it. Or I have to make my kids do stuff (wash, sleep wtf) and that really takes it out of me.

The more motivated among you will see right through my excuses. I’m a traffic procrastinator that’s for sure. But energy is a finite resource and every time I pretend it’s not my body insists, yes it is.

Last week I spent every day after work and the weekend cleaning to try and make it good enough for guests. I also wanted to get rid of enough stuff so my kids could keep their rooms tidy and make space for birthday presents (both their birthdays last week).

Now my house got to be 75% clean before my kids birthdays and 75% mess after. I slept all of Sunday and I do not have the energy to get on top of it on the foreseeable future.

And I did something really stupid and let my kids have separate birthday parties for the first year ever so here we go again this weekend. It’s a bit shit but it’ll all be over soon…then we can get ready for Christmas.